I believe in yesterday.

Monday, June 03, 2013

Aloha! It's been 4 weeks since school started, and if you don't already know, I'm currently in Provo, schooling in BYU. Sure, it's been really different from Singapore in terms of scenery (I'm talking about real mountains and pretty stars that you can see here instead of skyscrapers all the time - they're beautiful, all of them, but it's just not the same.) and for the first time, I'm in school with a whole bunch of people of the same faith. I mean, seriously, how much cooler can this get? (For someone who used to be the only kid with this faith in school since forever.) I hate to say how I've missed home so much, all the families and friends I've left back at home, nevertheless I've made some really awesome friends here thus far and it's been really wonderful how people are here for you because everyone is pretty much away from home, be it ten or eight thousand miles. It's spring, but it's been rather chilly here for the spring. The sun kinda peeks out occasionally, with some thunderstorm, but it's nothing like the hot and humid weather back home. I haven't worn long-sleeved tops and jeans/long pants in AGES. School's been really awesome. I have such a terrific Intro to Music professor - he makes the subjects really interesting every lesson even if it's plain boring. I don't know how he does it, but he does. And he has pictures of him and his families in slides in different parts of Europe depicting different places and people and all. This makes me miss Olomouc and Vienna a whole lot, but I'll definitely head back there again someday, this time to just sit back and enjoy the architectures and ice-cream (Aside from the joke that the whole exco will be retiring there when we all grow old. Good ol' days.) Math professor is the most boring person ever, but my TA makes up for it completely! It's really so different here, in my opinion how this educational system is functioning, but I think I'm thriving decently well here, which is great! I'm so blessed having Erika as my room-mate, with a couple of other Asians staying doors away from me! It's so international in my hall - there's Lucia from Korea, Kim Chi from Vietnam, Adrienne from the Philippines, Marina from Brazil, Vicki from Mexico, a couple of girls from Jerusalem and Jordan, and the other people from all the other parts of the US. And the coolest part is that Erika and I found out that there's this other Singaporean guy schooling in BYU (non-member though) on a swim scholarship, which is really, really cool! Of course, there's the Singaporean kiddos who are schooling here, and they've been really awesome people who occasionally cooks local food (and it just so happens that I'm going for a potluck gathering tonight! YUMZ.) which makes me really happy! (Singaporean friends, you know where to bring me when I get home next year!) I'm so grateful for this gospel, and this wonderful school that I've been admitted into. Right now, I still cannot understand why I'm really here, but I'll be contented being a part of this wonderful society till I get my answers for my existence here. Have a great sunday guys! I miss y'all! X.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Sticks and stones

It's been so long since I last posted anything. Mainly because I've been so busy with everything else, but really, I guess there wasn't very much worth a blog post apart from me getting a job, tutoring insane number of kiddos and getting into my dream school.

Of course I can't claim that life's been surreal and that all's been smooth; nevertheless I am genuinely grateful for the blessings that had been showered upon me over the past year and so. Dealing with little delinquents and screaming over simple instructions is still part of the job, but I suppose I've learnt to love these kiddos through these experiences. That immense sense of satisfaction is priceless when you see a class of students understand concepts taught to them, and pouting out their heart of gratitude to you as they embark on their next class.

Speaking of school, it's truly amazing and so much of a blessing as to how the Lord works in mysterious way. Taking the gamble and applying for BYU while forgoing offers from the local schools was such a big risk, but when the acceptance letter arrive I couldn't help but cry tears of joy. To know how much I have been blessed was one matter, to realise what I had to go through was a test and a price to pay for sweet success was another. Much as I am excited to embrace a new life and an uncertain future, I certainly feel the pinch having to leave my loved ones behind for an extended period of time. Four years may not be forever, but long enough for my heart to pine for a reunion. Enough for me to earnestly plan to come home to reunite with my people. But till then, my heart will wax strong as I embrace this new journey in life. I quote Matin "It's not 'goodbye', rather, it is 'see you again'." Wise little junior there.

Two months till departure. Carpe diem.

Xoxo.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Awfully broken. I really don't know what to do. And I don't know what I want anymore.

Monday, May 07, 2012

Frail

This is probably the lowest point in my life right now. I suppose it's how life decides to throw all the challenges and defeats one after the other in this manner and it is affecting my ability to think rationally. It's affecting me from doing anything right. I feel emotionally impaired and it is affecting my daily life. Perhaps I'm too overwhelmed by emotions to actually place anything rational in my head. Why do I have to deal with multiple setbacks at one go? You know how some moments make you feel like the biggest loser in the world because absolutely nothing is going right? This is one of those cry-worthy moments. (Who am I trying to kid when I force myself to look cheerful like nothing is wrong everyday?)

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

we could have had what we call a tomorrow

Heyyy guys I'm finally back blogging in full swing! (Or at least I certainly hope so!) :D I know i haven't been updating this space for the longest time, my sincerest apologies for that. Well I presume you're prolly interested in my mundane life past the excruciating A's so here you go HAHA! (: Post A's been extremely hectic so far - I spent half of december away; to Batam, Guangzhou, Shenzhen and Hong Kong having some of the greatest times of my life, without having to suffer fron insomnia because I can't complete my assignments and all that jazz. Shopping and eating pretty much became the routine of the day. If I'm not overseas I'd be out hanhing out with the people in my life. In Jan, I've been blessed with a job (despite having to commute between 3-4hours on a daily basis with little terrors to deal with each day, I've nice colleagues, amaing classes that are ready to pick up something new each lesson, an understanding achool.tht tries to fix my schedule such that I don't have to wake up at 5am every morning and a decently good pay.), the bulk of my voice back (should be able to start voice lessons soon!), an amazingly dedicated piano teacher whom I really admire and aspire to play like one day, reunion dinners, visitations during the festive CNY seasons with truckloads of goodies to boot, good friends who make an effort to date me out so that I won't go crazy interacting with kids for the major part of the day and people who don't scream at me despite being very late & exhausted (especially on friday nights.) In short, basically I've been a blessed and happy girl. :D HAPPY 初三 guys, may this year be an amazing one for you! (: Xoxo.

Sunday, December 25, 2011

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas

'Hey Jesmine, I know this might spud random but Merry Christmas. I been blessed to know someone like you.'

Wow this message certainly came as a massive surprise, especially when it comes from someone whom you've met only a couple of times, stays in Johor (or so I think he still does.) and all he remembers is that we've met and talked during YC, haha. Thank you Eugenio. (:

And Merry Christmas everyone, you guys have been a major blessing.

Enjoy the final hour of Christmas while I dream of my white Christmas.
Xoxo.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before.

I'm so scared, I feel like crying.
What should I do?
Who should I listen to?
Should I trust myself?
What if...

Sunday, October 23, 2011

You know your brain is in peril when you answer "1st" for almost every questioned asked because almost everyone asks when I end A's. While taking down my mobile number... Sis S: Which ward are you from? Me: 1st. Salted Pig: You don't even look like you're from 1st ward!!! Me: OH SHOOT! AMK I mean! (And all this while I was just thinking "I end on the 1st, I end on the 1st.") Xoxo.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

And as our lives change.

The two most awesome graduation videos ever (even though I don't take physics, but this one's a must watch, and of course my beloved bio cohort tutors.) I'll post more tomorrow, but for now, enjoy the videos! :D Au revoir. Xoxo

Sunday, October 09, 2011

And yes I'm gonna say

Happy Belated Birthday to my dear YQ (on the 4th) who texted me just days before her birthday to jiayou for A's, which is so sweet of her and I miss her so much too, and my lovely good and evil twin juniors Fee and Mare (yesterday). Love you girls truckloads. :D And Mare (& Fee's) birthday party was awesome last night - got to catch up with the girls + Nat + Sheryl Tan, officially meet 2 of the girls' plus one(s) for the first time who are really nice and I'm really really happy for them and basically hang out with all of em'. I hope you two enjoyed your birthday and the presents! :D My dad is uber awesome and cute - awesome cos he printed a half of my bio papers and saved me a hassle of time from tearing my hair out having to print out (18 schools of bio +3 schools of chem) x 3 papers per set = 63 papers. Cute because he didn't print those that I needed to tomorrow therefore I'm online now printing the 2 copies that I need tomorrow haha, plus he thought I meant 63 pages when he offered to help print the papers for me. When I corrected him saying it's 63 papers, he must've regretted offering HAHA. My printer, lappy and mobile will certainly conk out by the end of this year, and I'm sorry I'm killing all the trees, I promise my dad will recycle all of you after Dec 1st. HAHA. And a conversation with my mum this afternoon made me crack up. Me: I'm contemplating taking a new language when I'm in uni. I was contemplating to relearn Malay but I can't take it. I'm thinking if I should pick up French... or Jap. Mum: Why French? Me: Uhhh... I don't know. I guess it sounds demure... Or maybe German? Mum: Take German! PP used to take German! You can be a translater for YAH and (Inserts German hardware company that the family company's working with) and talk to them. Me: ... Thanks uh. *Exploited* Mum: Ya. Then you can understand what they're talking in German and you can marry one of them. Me: WHUT. (and just in the car my mum was just telling me how she would force my husband to eat chinese food if he was Japanese because she refuses to touch sashimi. She sounds like she wants a foreign son-in-law. -.-) Speaking of food, I'm craving for Ikea's Swedish meatballs. ): Someone please date me to Ikea for a meal after the 1st HAHAHA. Okay I better get outta here. Time to nap teeheehee - my pimples are popping up like plague and I'm obviously lacking in sleep AHHHHHH. ): I hate it everytime I have to say, "After 1st of December." It reminds me how close it is to the beginning of Nov the 8th. Actually 29days from now. Maybe I should stop all forms of internet activities till the 1st. ): Gosh I did not just use 1/3 a rim of white paper to print out 6 papers. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. D:

): Xoxo.

Sunday, October 02, 2011

American Pie

My prelims concluded with my monthly best friend's arrival. How timely. Okay that wasn't what I was gonna say today. So yeah, that's the last of my internal tertiary examination. Not that it feels surreal or anything (since I know that I am certainly going to do well - I never understood why schools have to kill students in the attempt to make them 'wake up'. And okay, I've to admit that I'm lacking the time factor which what caused the papers to stabbed me, thus I'm just gonna spam papers under timed conditions now. And of course those sucky topics. Bleargh.) 5 weeks to A's. So sad it's no longer hilarious. It used to be 500+++ days to A's when I first came to JC. ): Well, so since everyone insisted I HAD to have a break before sprinting to the end, I did. Had Sak's birthday dinner at Vivo's Fig&Olive with the birthday lady, Housewifey, Jes before meeting EC at TCC for a drink at City Hall where we stayed up till about 11 on friday night. Rockband with exco last night, and I really really missed them so much when I saw them and realised it's really been AGES since I last saw them! I miss talking to Gabz; it's been to long and we honestly didn't get to talk that much last night, nevertheless it was enough to make me miss him. I got to htht with Oli and Charm a lil' when they came to look for me because I was 3 hours late and couldn't find my way to Playnation LOL. And of course, spending time with the rest of em singing my lungs out with my by-now-awesomely-cui-voice and being lost playing the drum set cos I didn't know which side were my notes and forgot that the pedal existed so i didn't press it until Cheow was so shocked, grabbed the pedal and started to press it with his hands HAHAHA while JY and everyone else were using their hands to beat the drums and the drum set was moving towards the screen in a lopsided fashion HAHA. Okay need to play more, after A's. Got to hangout and catchup a bit with Cheow, Gabz, Oli, Carl, JY, YJ while Zhuo and David were settling payment before they came out and joined us. And Carl is so funny, he got so glued to the soccer match when we left him to watch it he was still clueless we left him! :P Now I really can't wait for Dec the 1st. (: And Oli suggested the whole gang of them come to my house to pack for my YSA convention just in case I can't finish packing and can't go out LOL. But yeah, I had two awesome nights with some of the two most awesome groups in the world, and I love them loads. Thank you for dragging me out to play, and I really appreciated it. And thank you for being some of the most supportive friends ever, cos I don't know where I'd be without you guys. Possibly still an oddball, I s'pose. Alright time to head to church. With the addition of the newly formed 4th ward, I foresee truckloads of parking issue. *plays horror music* (4th ward comprises of the American expats and most families drive, so yeahhh.) Tata! :D Xoxo.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Dear Grace,

We have an epic friendship. Life is unfair. We meet, we split, we meet again, and we're splitting again in 24hours' time. You're the longest childhood friend I've ever kept in contact and still am close to till this very day. I wasn't your typical well-liked girl when you first knew me; in fact, I was possibly one of those rather odd and introverted kind then. You were the new girl who just transferred over. But we became friends, and we never hardly ever separated, even when we split class the next year. Of course, the time came when you broke the devastating news that you had to leave me because your family had to move to Australia. I survived the next 2.5 years, though I struggled without having someone this close, at least till the very end of primary school before I changed rather dramatically later on as i progressed to TKGS. I received cards from you every Christmas, even though you never got a single letter from me because you kept moving and that my letter never reached you. I never knew if you were ever coming back, because you were uncertain of it yourself. Nonetheless, you surprised me 2.5 years later by coming back to Singapore without me having any prior knowledge, got posted to TKGS and landed in the same class as me! This is fate, really. In 24hours' time, we're going to go through this whole cycle again, but at the very least, this time I'm sure you'll be back. (: Thank you for being my friend then, when I had nothing to my name. Thank you for being my first best friend, someone close to my heart, even to this very day, and I sincerely hope this friendship will last to the very end of time. Thank you for everything, bestie. I am going to miss you so much, ): All the best in London School of Economics in UK, study hard and take good care of yourself during your stay there. Don't ever let anyone put you down. Bon voyage, my dear girl, I'll be waiting for your emails and I'll see you at Changi Airport's arrival hall in 3 years' time. (If you don't come back anytime before that.) Despite the teary farewell, this is to 10 years of friendship, and many years to come. (': With all my love, Your bestie of 10 years and counting.

Monday, September 19, 2011

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears

This has got to be the most tiring nightmare.
No/rejecting every offer of a social life, wanting to sleep 3/4 of the time.
Signs of a burn out child, but it's 49 days left till it starts.
Time's not on my side.
My head hurts, my mind's spinning like a carousel,
I just wokeup at 11pm and I'm already exhausted now.
Time to pop some panadol and drift off to slumberland, again.

Lifesux. I want to be my normal self again.
A's, you're really doing me in. You certainly are.
)':

Xoxo.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

The scar of your love reminds me of us

Hey!
Yeah it's been ages. And I seriously doubt that anyone will ever read this space anymore since my posts have been rather erratic of nature. (ie. no specific as to when I post. Yeah.) If there's ever anyone reading now... HI RARE VISITOR HAHA..:D

Anyway, I only said I'll stop facebooking till end of A's. I didn't say I was gonna stop blogging and tweeting till A's. LOL.

Sooooooooo yeah, I guess if anyone's ever here you'd prolly wanna know how my mundane life has been. Yeah you just got your answer. (Read the previous line.)

Okay that was lame.

Alright I'd be serious.
1. Yeah I made a promise to myself to stop facebooking till end of A's. And I give people the privilege to smack me if they catch me on fb.
2. If you haven't heard the sensational news (hardly anyone's seen me as of now - unless we're in the same ward in church, school/classmates or a study buddy), yes Miss Ong here finally went to get her tresses of 2.5 years cut off. I'd say chopped off but when I said chopped off the whole must've thought it was bob short - but no, sorry to disappoint you then (I couldn't risk having screwed hair for prom.) heehee. It's slightly beyond shoulder length, v-shaped style, thinned.
3. And if you haven't heard, Miss Ong's hairdresser nearly broke her scissors while cutting the maiden's tresses. Nope not comb. SCISSORS. No wonder her hairdressing experience was more costly than expected. Miss Ong's hairdresser was so amazed with the amount of hair chopped off she had to weigh it. 100g? No. 200g? Nope. 250g? Nah...
It was almost a good 500g. Good job Miss Ong.
4. Okay I shall not write in 3rd person. I feel funny hahaha.
5. You can obviously tell I'm not very sane at this point of time.
6. I've sent off Winnie, Kenneth, Marisa, Myra, Malia at the airport. No energy to send the rest off, sorry. ):
7. Bestie's leaving for London School of Economics in exactly a week's time. I think I'm gonna cry. But we've the most epic how-we-meet-and-how-we-met-again story, ever. I'M GONNA MISS YOU CHAN EN YING GRACE. Please take care when you're there. (I foresee a crying scene somewhere - it's either gonna be at the airport or at home.)
8. Been listening to rather emo/heartbreaking songs of late - Adele's Rolling in the Deep & Someone Like You, Lady Antebellum's Need You Now, The Band Perry's If I Die Young and others stuff. On replay. okay must stop being emo period.
9. You have to listen to Janet Devlin's rendition of Your Song. Youtube it - Lazy to find the video and put here. Such a beautiful and innocent looking girl, with an amazing voice and shy personality to boot. I'd totally go after her if I were a guy HAHA.
9a. John Mayer + Michael Bublé = Sexy, soothing tenor voices. Wo xi huan. (:
9b. But in reality bass>tenor sorry heehee. (If my future bf's a tenor then... Sorry in advance heehee. :P)
10. One random day I went crazy and started posting EVERYDAY I'M SHUFFLIN' on twitter. LMFAO must be proud of their awesome Party Rock Anthem.
11. I secretly want to take up ballroom dancing after A's. But I've to find a guy to go with me or it'll be socially awkward without a dance partner. And I don't know anyone who's interested/interested and haven't learnt. Bleah.
12. Parents will kill me after they may possibly figure how much I'm gonna spend during my 8-months post-A's holidays. Need to find a job. Lobang, anyone?
13. Hongkong/Guangzhou/Zhuhai/Macau. Confirmed. Incentive to study harder. And awesome ploy to get fatter - awesome desserts and wan ton mee, here I come yay!
14. Hope Melo's going back to Hongkong so that someone's there to bring me around. And spend awesome shopping time together.
15. Means I've shelved my plans to New York/Utah/US. Note to self: Still need to find someone to go with me family can't go next summer.
16. Possible trip with Mare next Feb/March to visit Putt in Bangkok.
17. Nua-ed at Mare's place with the Enzyme, Fee and Sa yesterday. And we ate junk food, went people stalking, Megamind, chatted. And Fee's mum bought me soup from Cedele. Thankyou Fab4 and auntie. (:
17a. Someone said he's quite cute heehee. Sorry I couldn't resist. :P
18. I miss singing. And choir. And my voice is cui like crazy.
19. I wanna go carolling.
20. Watched NUSchoir's Sing for Japan with Charm (who slept in the library), 3rd Sept. Good job Cheow and Serene! And I bumped into truckloads of people so I got to catchup a bit with them! Sheer happiness. :D
20a. Now I wished A's are over.
20b. I think someone figured something out on twitter. ):
21. I ABHOR PEOPLE WHO SNORE IN LIBRARIES. Sorry people - don't you have a bed at home? ):
22. Surprised Malia with Teppan dinner at her house! We made her go all the way to town with her makeup on, just to blindfold and send her home, again HAHA. We hope you had fun. :D
23. I think I'm going to YSA/SA convention this year.
24. Which is likely to be the day after my last paper.
25. And I think I'm gonna meet exco on the evening of my last paper.
26. I really can't wait for A's to end.
27. I seriously miss my social life.
28. People, if anyone sees this now, y'guys can book me between 6th-7th dec or 20th dec onwards TYVM. I miss you guys like, A LOT so please remember to book me. ):
29. Life sucks now. Mugging ain't fun. Prelim's a torture.
29a. Sat for the worst Math Paper in history. I felt like I sat for major 4 Vectors/Integration/Differentiation/Complex exam. For real.
29b. Okay my other papers weren't much better either.
30. I'm obviously talking too much. It's 1.51am and I should really be sleeping rather than typing here.
30a. I had 2 weird dreams. If they work out, I'd tell you another day.
31. Goodnight world. PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU even though I've been buried behind my books. :D

Xoxo.

Monday, August 29, 2011

分手

Everything's happening the wrong time. Everything. If this is gonna be breakup season, please let it end really soon. Seeing one person suffering in agony when two are no longer in love or having a major dispute really is agonising, much less having 7/8 people undergoing similar emotional crisis. My heart goes out to you guys. And I am really sorry how I'm possibly not there as much as I wished I could because schoolwork's holding me back as of now, I really am. ):

But remember, there is a reason, a time and a season to everything that happens. And one day, someone better will come along and pick you up and shower you with the blessings of joy, warmth and love and remind you what love truly is. And the wait will be worth every drop of tear you're shedding and every memory too painful to keep yet too precious to discard. It'll be worth it. (':

On a more jubilant note, happy birthday to my dearest Olivia Djawoto, the 'mum' who was the 1st person I entrusted my deepest darkest secrets of my JC drama days to, the one who could give me rational advices and remind me to never give up hope in every single thing and do my best and never gave up on me. 2.5years of friendship and counting, and I'm waiting to be your bridesmaid on your wedding with 'dad' (not forgetting the extra fishballs I'm entitled to. :D) Hearts to all over the world to you, Mummeh. :D

Xoxo.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

this scene won't play

This is one of the rare few days I wake up at an uncanny 3am in the morning, reach terminal 1 at 4am, send Myra off at 5.15am, rush home to take my bag and reach school by 7.30am, have lessons till 3pm, consultatioh with miss liang before studying till marisa called and had farewell steamboat dinner for john (where I ended up becoming the baby and john kept peeling prawns for me LOL.) at tanjong katong till10pm.

Bon voyage John, happy 19th birthday Polarbear, and bon voyage Myra Lai Shu-Xian. It's been less than 20hours since I last met you but I miss you a whole load already. ): See you in 2years' time & I love you, always. *hugs* (Y)

Xoxo.

Monday, August 15, 2011

You've come so far, don't throw it away

I've been surviving on truckloads of food, encouragement, help, advice and love albeit the unfavourable conditions which encompasses stress, devastation and uncertainty.

Thank you for all the support, and concern shown through this treacherous journey, because I really appreciate every single little care. From random smses from various people, just asking how I've been coping and telling me to keep hanging in there and poor people who have to listen to me whine incessantly and to helping me physically by willingly offer their help to me in the subjects that I'm weaker in.

I'm really lucky. I don't deserve all these.
I'm going to survive this ordeal.
In the words of my lovable bio tutor this morning,
"If you can survive JC, you can survive anything."
And that's exactly what I plan to do.

And that would be to continue to survive on more food, encouragement, help, advice and love. (Y)

3.15pm on December the 1st doesn't seem too far away.
The light at the end of the tunnel seems a little brighter every step I take.
Freedom is drawing nearer every moment.
I'm not giving up,
Not now after I've been through so much.

Xoxo.

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

For this is where I know I'm home.

'This is home, truly
Where I know I must be.
Where my dreams wait for me,
Where the river always flows,
This is home, surely
As my senses tell me,
This is where I won't be alone,
For this is where I know it's home.'

This is where I begin.
This is where my family and friends are.
This is where I was brought up.
This is where I was educated.
This is where I found love.
This is where I feel safe and warm.
This is where I want to bring up my future family.
This is where I belong.
This is where I call home.
And I'm not saying this because it's national day but, it's really the pride of being a true blue Singaporean.

Home is where the heart is.
Happy Birthday Singapore, my heart stays here no matter where I am. (:

Xoxo.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

One in a million

Aloha! It's been awhile since I last posted anything here and it's already the last day of July! ):

So much have happened over the month, and my emotions has been placed on a rollercoaster ride. School's starting to be suicidal in nature, with a typical weekday beginning at 7.30, ending at a range of between 4.30-5.30pm before struggling to complete the mountain of revision packages and exam papers. On good (and rare) days I'll get my bed at almost 12am and on the worse days I can be up till past 3 in the morning before reluctantly turning in because nothing's making sense. It's amazing how I'm still alive now, I suppose, but I'm living by the day and all that ever keeps me going is the hope of gaining entry to NUS and beginning a new life come the afternoon of Dec the 1st. Naive, ain't I? In short, hope's keeping me alive.

Just so if you were thinking, my midyears was pure disaster. Down with flu and fever the night before it all started, and it resulted in a very cranky and disorientated me during the 2 weeks. So yeah, i'm spamming vitamin C, water and going into mugger mode now.

Okay, so I wasn't studying 24/7. I've had a couple of nights out, sent Winnie, Kennth Lee and Marisa off at Changi, timbre@oldschool with exco, NYJChoir Farewell, and a couple of others stuff which i kinda forgot offhand. (This is the result of the lack of sleep, sigh. Apology for the zombified state of this poor girl here. D:) Manda treated me to Sakae lunch and I'm so happy for that girl, clinching a place in a local U. (: Someone else still owes me a meal heehee! :P

But amidst the busy month, there were two moments that impacted me/kept me pondering:
1. When Kenneth hugged and teared when he hugged his granny just before the check-in area. I guess the moment must have really been priceless for the both of them, but I felt so touched by that scene. Though you won't be seeing this, have an unforgettable mission in London South. (:
2. GC (semi-tipsy state i presumed) to me at Timbre: 'You guys are not together... yet right?' Left me speechless. I don't know what people know and what they don't.

Yeah, i miss him and not seeing him for such a long time makes me miss him even more. I guess this is truely 'absence makes the heart fonder'.

I can't wait for A's to be over for good. I need a time out. And all the things to fall in place thereafter (I hope). (:

And I got to skype with Manda Loh and Marisa today. Therefore, today's awesome though I miss my two girls! And both of em' are coming back next year - totally have to make and spend time with em'! :D
Till the next time lovelies.
Xoxo.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

My heart, like a compass is true.

End of Compassvale's openhouse.

I'm feeling floaty (must be the helium, seriously) and happy now.

This may not have been the best holidays so far, (since I felt that I was more accomplished and productive last year), but it was awesome while the fun lasted.

Like,

1. Study dates with awesome people like Melo, Sam, Mare, Fee, Deb... (the list is non-exhaustive, I'm just lazy to think heehee.)

2. Lion King with the exco. (at the expense of burning a good 88bucks from my pocket.)

3. Random trip to KL with the family. It was awesome, and we had loads of good food. :D (Yeah can totally see the weight gaining part.)

4. Birthday dinners. One other reason why I'm gaining all those weight and there were a good number of birthday people this month.

5. Non-birthday dinners. Yet another reason for gaining weight. At this point I'm grateful I passed NAPFA or I'd be dead meat.

6. Compassvale Openhouse. It was AWESOME - helium sucking, impromptu singing, (which reminds me that I should deal with Joel for volunteering himself. And me -.-) taking loads of random photos, (Michael, seriously. LOL.) being high and happy.

Got to talk to YJ this morn too when i was feeling unusally stressed, so I guess we basically chatted over things over his Macs breakfast (thank goodness he stopped spamming creamer and sugar as compared to the last time haha!) and our Macs lunch (okay no more Macs for the next few weeks thankyou.) for three hours while it rained before I headed for the openhouse and he met his exclassmates at Vivo. Thank you. (even though you nearly gave me a heartattack and I nearly wanted to killed you. And I told you I won't go to your wedding if yoi find another boy in NS k. Mwahahaha. :P) Also got to catchup a little with Mike after the performance yesterday (It's been ages ohmyword the last time I met him prior to tonight was my birthday LOL.) I'm very excited for Midyears to end cos I'm gonna meetup with some of my seminary batchmates (I really miss all of em'). And I end the week where they are having their block week yay. I've to try to catch the rest of em' too argh i haven't met loads of em' in agesssssss. Miss em'. D:

And now, Xintao's trying to psycho me via MSN. Umm, okay F of effect (Mainly because I'm beat and am not really reading the content), B for trying. HAHA.

Okay time to sleep. Dedication tomorrow, and I still need to sing! (though i can feel my voice dying already. This is sad.)

Goodnight lovelies,
And wish me all the best for mids till the 7th. ):
Xoxo.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Timeout.
I wanna go to ECP. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Make the want a need instead.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

thanks for acting like you cared

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

And making me feel like I was the only one.

This is a test of faith. And trust.
Should I trust you?
But then again, we have no obligations towards each other.

It's all my fault.
My fault.

If only I were a little smarter, a little prettier, a little better.

[/edit] 10.32pm.
It's the vicious cycle.
No excuses to go out anymore,
And there are potential danger. ):

If I were a boy.

Maybe I should bury myself with work till... 1st dec.
*sobs*

bald boys and pretty girls make me happy

Yeah they certainly do. HAHA. (:
Cos the boys were bald and every girl's pretty today! (:

LION KING WAS OMG-I-CAN'T-FIND-A-WORD-THAT'S-BETTER-THAN-IMBA.
I don't mind watching it again. (:

Xoxo.

Monday, June 06, 2011

that's ancient history, been there done that

Hiiiiiiiii i'm back from KL. :D
Time to start mugging (for real) tomorrow!

(I'm still looking for someone to watch POTC with me. D:)

Xoxo.

Thursday, June 02, 2011

you played your part, like a star you played it so well

It's June the 1st, I've my first package from my very first internet shopping experience, (new dress ftw!) started on Organic Chem during my mugging date with Fee and Mare in the afternoon and had awesome dinner at Seoul Garden with my family.

What more can I ask for, really?

On a random note, I miss all my A2 girls. It's been a long time since I last met my TKG and NY girls.

Zzz time. Mugging date with Gloria Tan and Bero before dinner with Gayle and Malia tomorrow night. I'm really gonna gain 10kg at this rate. D:

Xoxo.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

summer fling, don't mean a thing

My speech is becoming terribly incoherent - and I attribute the main cause to my fatigue. Seems like it's been awhile since I last typed sensible in here because I've been too tired to think and recollect, nevertheless...

The past three weeks had been insanely busy, truckload of tests, more tests on saturdays, neverending tutorials and assignments, last minute frantic shopping for Zhuyi's wedding, insane listening skills to attempt to play them on the piano to practice for the wedding, birthdays, teaching and conduucting the choir, having to entertain someone who I've absolutely no interest in... It's been insane, but I've made it through. It might've been 4-day school weeks, but it came at the expense of more lessons which led to a combination of starting school earlier, taking away breaks and ending school late. I've had days where I start lessons at 7.30am, end at 5pm, and survived with a half an hour break during that stretch. The worst problem? When your break's too late for breakfast and too early for lunch. Like 10.30am - 11am. Last till 5pm? Who're you kidding? Well at least it's a 4 weeks break now, and I thank God for it. :D

Spent friday afternoon napping before EC helped me with bio and dinner with Zheng Yuan. Saturday was Poisson tutorial before dinner with Melo and Matin and catching up with the two of my sweet juniors at Cathay. :D Maternal gran's place after church on Sunday, mugging date with Zee in school yesterday before swinging over to Sis Marlene's for FHE at 7pm and extra math tutorial, more math at Sis Marlene's and more help for Bio from EC today. Braincell depleted now and I certainly am in need of sleep, soon. Haha! Surprised that I'm still using whatevr minimal energy I've left right now to type this (hopefully coherent enough post). :D

It's the final hour of May, and in an hour it'll be June the 1st. As the days and hours pass by, I get increasingly fearful. GP mids last friday has left me jaded, (it is currently holding the title of the worst GP paper in history.) and I'm clueless as to what's ahead of me. Perhaps I should embrace what the future holds, but that'll only be possible if I get past the hurdle that's right in front of me. I know, I've exactly 6months before embracing my 1st breath of newfound freedom (yeap my last paper's the morning of Dec the 1st) but the feeling of eternal hell then sets in. I'm not on schedule with my schedule (pun unintended), but I'm gonna try my best to follow (and re-adjust the things i've missed out over the past two days which IS a whole load OHNO.) for the rest of the holidays. I'm gonna be so determined to do it (and of course a couple of breaks in between - I still wanna catch Kungfu Panda 2 and Pirates of the Carribean 4 (and still searching for people who haven't watch them, let me know if you're interested! :D) and Harry Potter after Mids in July, and take advantage of GSS during this period,) but apart from that I'm gonna go on mugging dates, mugging dates and more mugging dates. Yay. Oh not forgetting the weekend trip to KL. Teehee. (:

I'm gonna do it. I AM GOING TO MAKE SURE I MAKE IT. JUST YOU WAIT.

Anyway on a lighter note, to the 4 people who gave me mini heartattacks this month, I'm really happy that you've found the other half. May you guys enjoy happier days ahead as couples and that sweet love prevails. (:

Hello June, summer fling(:

Tomorrow's gonna be busy too, Marlene's followed by date with Mare & Fee followed by Seoul Garden dinner with the fam. Gonna sleep now, goodnight world. :D

Xoxo.

Monday, May 16, 2011

So I'm saving all my love for you

Bio's ICS test on Wed.
Chem's inorganic test on Thurs.
Econ's market failure test on Fri, possibly followed by night cycling if I've any energy left.
Sa's birthday party at Palawan's and ZY's pre-wedding stuff on Sat.
ZY's wedding (+ dinner) on Sun.
It's gonna be a crazy week ahead, I need to be geared.

Happy birthday Sally Goh Shi Yun, my classmate of three years. Hope you read my segment of the card and if the second half comes true, I ought to be treated a good meal mwahahahaha. :P Have an awesome one ahead yeah!

For now, Imma very happy girl. :D (Some people will know why heehee!)
And thanks for the company tonight KM, really appreciate it! :D I'm so sorry you left my place so late though. :/

Xoxo.

Sunday, May 08, 2011

there's no more to say

It's 3.20am in the morning, I'm sleepy, but while GE results are still rather fresh in my head I'm gonna give my two cent's worth of comment anyway.
Firstly, Aljunied was lost to WP from PAP. Both teams fought, and yes it was a good strong fight with strong mandates on both side. Perhaps, this was one of the reasons why I was so glued to the general elections over the past few weeks. My heartiest congratulations to WP, and may they work to serve the citizens of Aljunied well and take care of their needs in that GRC.
On the other hand, losing a foreign minister who've served and discharged his duty well to serve the members of Aljunied so well is really saddening. Hearing his defeat speech did make my heart swell a lil' - he was so gentlemanly and accepted his defeat in a positive manner. Most importantly, not once did he blame his committee members and instead pretty much shouldered the responsibility of his defeat to himself. This, is one of the finest attribute of a man - admirable and gentlemanly because only a handful can do so, and under such great pressure.

Mr George Yeo. This is respect from a 19 year old girl. I hope you are contemplating running for the Singapore Presidential Elections because I'm certain many will cast their votes for you to bring Singapore to greater heights and leave a lasting legacy.

Secondly, Chiam See Tong has been one of the most influential leader in Singapore's opposition political arena, and I certainly respect and admire his remarkable courage for running during this election and fighting a good fight. May you and Mrs Lina Chiam remain healthy and active in the days to come.

These people have my respect.

Thirdly, I'm hoping to see Nicole Seah in the Parliment one day. Someone with such zest to serve her fellow people and contribute to society should be present to fight for the rights of the citizens whenever possible. Much as I'm for PAP in Marine Parade (With the exception of Miss Kate Spade, perhaps she might grow up during the 5 years, I hope) due to the experience they've had and I'd say that I don't have much to complain about over the past 5 years because they've been doing a decently good job, I'm certainly glad that there's the opposition rallying here this time round' to increase the intensity of competition, and of course show us that there are great potentials within the party too. Eastsiders FTW Go Nicole! (:

But then again, I'm for the abolishment of GRCs. SMCs is the way for the best candidates to serve the nation, imo. (and Miss Kate Spades will never be in the parliment again, uh huh.)

I can't wait to be able to vote in 2016. And i anticipate a more exciting GE too! (: The youths today are cerainly not apathetic to major issues like this, especially when it concerns our future.

On the other hand, Happy Mother's Day! May their days be long and fulfilling as these fine ladies continue to fulfill their sacred roles in the homes to breed generations of potential talents.

Xoxo.

Thursday, May 05, 2011

I wanna take you away

I'm kinda feeling dreamy - lying on the bed and my hair really smells good - the aftermath of using awesome shampoo and conditioner. Need to get a haircut soon though, it's been ages since I last got it snipped. (:

Gold is awesome, my dear NYJChoir.

Sab was texting me just now about how she went on the tour to tekong when she sent Justin off and exclaiming how modern and clean it looked! (Poor guy must already miss her a lot though. Aww.) Heehee. And how Justin went to get a haircut before enlisting this morn. Lol! Anyway, Kenneth & Mike just enlisted this morning too, have fun in Tekong yeah! Two weeks of hardcore BMT/confinement jiayou! Can't wait to see them bald lol. (Please don't keel me teeheehee!) :P

And happy (one hour in advance) 18th birthday Sam Tan Li Ling! You've been such a QT babe! (she taught me how to use the words haha!) May you and bb get together one day and then you'll stop having to spazz on him secretly haha!

Day One.
7.15am handball tomorrow, goodnight lovelies.
Xoxo.

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

All the way

All the best for SYF tomorrow.
Whoever you are, whichever choir you're from - Sing out loud, sing out strong.
Bring out the passion in you. :D

Here's all the best to all you JC choirs. (:

And NYChoir, all the way. THIS. IS. IT. (:
Xoxo.

Monday, May 02, 2011

oh I wished that you would call me right now

Talking to EC made me realise how much I still missed you over a simple fact that I can't let you go for someone new as of now. ):
If only you were here by my side listening to me rant and lending me your shoulder to lie on because I'm so tired with school.
Please take good care of yourself when you enlist this week alright. May the Lord bless you while you serve the nation, especially during BMT for the 1st 3 months where it might be the hardest to cope, but I'm sure you'll survive. (:

Meanwhile, it's May. Time I start picking up speed and stop skiving.
No regrets on the 1st of December. Only tears of joy in March 2012.
Xoxo.

Monday, April 25, 2011

I'm officially missing you

The urge to pen down my thoughts right now is so overwhelming, I'm gonna do it before I forget how exactly I feel at this point of time. (And tearing a little.)

It started off with a rather innocent fb status update by XXZ which content was mainly on how people were leaving and that got me thinking, people are really leaving for universities and missions.

Amanda Loh's been in Provo for almost a year right now, (and I still miss you dearly here in Singapore, just so you know.) Ben just left for mission a couple of days ago on Good Friday and Kenneth Lee's leaving in a couple of weeks/months. Nadine's migrating to US. Myra's heading for Provo in June, Marisa and Malia to Hawaii in July and September, Grace to UK, Valerie Chew to Wales in September, XXZ might leave if things don't turn out as planned. Unsure if anyone else's leaving this year, but it's enough for me to feel sad that you guys won't be distance-wise as close as to me as before. But I'm really happy that everyone's pursuing their dreams and goals and I just want you guys to know (if you happen to be reading this) that I am so, so proud of you guys and may opportunities arise for you guys to grab hold of em'. To those who are still around, I certainly hope to meet you guys before you leave! So umm, yeah sms/fb me for lunch/dinner dates before you leave hahaha! :D

Because I know I will cry when I send people off at the airport. ):
And, I'm officially missing you.

Xoxo.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

and the whole world is on your case

I typed a decent-length post but accidentally pressed the wrong button, deleted the entire post and am unable to retrieve it. :/

It's okay, I can always word them again. I've fantastic news though, I survived 2.5consecutive hours of chemistry today, and TKGSCHOIR'S ATTAINED IT'S 3RD CONSECUTIVE GWH! :DD HAPPINESS! :D
 Moribus Modestus.

Running tomorrow. I'd be back here on thursday evening cos I've content to rant about. (or so I think.)
Xoxo.

Monday, April 11, 2011

The sea is raging

My bad. (Thanks to Zheng Yuan), I just realised I used the same initials for 2 different people on my last post. O.o I was ranting to ZHENGYUAN at Esplanade, And I've yet to get a dress for ZHUYI'S wedding dinner. (Of which I'm really, really excited for!) :D LOL. (Sorry Zheng Yuan, I won't invest so much on you, hahahahaha! Don't sob. :P ) And I survived my 8.5hours-lessons day. Win. Xoxo.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Take wings and go your way

Xoxo.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Somewhere out there

I was tinkling random songs from a book on the piano while my dad accompanied me by singing along. And it was 10.30pm. (Mind you I'm staying in a public housing, not my dearest bunga rampai, but nevermind I did it anyway. Lol. Sorry neighbours!)
Singing with the piano has never felt so good, and I missed this feeling. (Aww.)

(Poor ZY had to listen to me rant how I missed voice so much after there were a bunch of people singing and practicing disney & broadway songs on the grandpiano at esplanade library while I was still complexified by complex. Well at least I was a good friend to accompany her to the library to search for her diploma materials!)

Napfa 5 items this morning, followed by napping and a little studying before heading out with Sab to get a new school bag, so I got a zinc sling of which I liked the brown and yellow combi - can you believe it I was actually contemplating getting the hot pink one (and sab would've died of shock) and we continued shopping round' bugis, dinnered at soup spoon, walked aroud a lil' more before heading home where she walked me to my block as we talked, thank you housewifey! (:

Still need to get a formal dress for ZY's wedding/prom. Meh okay need to lose weight and save money hahaha! And i've to stop being so stressed over schoolwork so my pimples don't pop up like flowers lol! ):
And I'm still contemplating if I should get it from Daniel Yam/Glitter Glam/SugarLink/somewhere else I can't make up my mind. Zzz.

(Retail therapy ftw!) (:

Anyway Sab is laughing at me now cos someone is talking to me. :/
Okay in need of sleep. Qingming tomorrow so I guess I've to be up by 4.30am. *groans*

NY screwed PW this year, feel sympathetic the whole bunch of juniors who attained B who put in truckloads of efforts cos they really deserve the A's for the effort (esp my classmates cos I see them plus Mr T putting in their all for it) but, cheerup, cos there's still a long way and this time, it's 5 subjects we're talking about, so pick yourselves up, and carry on till Dec the 1st! (:
We'll make it to the end, and we'll do ourselves proud. Press on!
Xoxo.

Monday, April 04, 2011

Cos there's a whole future ahead of you

I'm guilty and remorseful for doing way below my expectations and the expectations of my teachers, parents and friends.

I've woken up from complacency and am gonna study hard from now on. And must not get overly stressed cause it killed me this time round', again. I know the two sentences sound really ironic, but it's true.

No more U's & S's from now on. Only passes to A's from now on.

C'mon, I can do this. Cos people believe in me, so I must too.
And I must never let my dreams shatter, and I promise never to let my loved ones down again. I will work till I reach my goals without being overly stressed and never allow that mental breakdown to replay.
Xoxo.

Monday, March 28, 2011

No hope left

9am this morning left me completely devastated and hopeless.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

maybe it'll be tomorrow

In all honesty, I'm am beyond exhausted but I figured if I don't post today then I never would because so much happened from when I last posted. Think it's been about two and a half weeks back since I last posted. You've been warned, it's a lengthy post ahead. (Provided I don't fall asleep while typing this cos I'm lying on my bed - I really am tired.)

So I'd start from the most recent week. If there was one word to describe thre march block tests, it would be: asdfghjklzxcvbnm. Yeah. It was BAD, no joke. The weekdays were passing by as if I was stuck in hell, and every passing day got gloomier. For someone who generally has a rather high mental tolerance, I nearly died. I think the only reason why I'm still alive now's because I told myself it isn't worth dying over block test, even if I really attained straight Us. With people telling me how it's only block test and my stress level is not worth it, I can't imagine how much more ardeous this journey is going to be, with midyears, prelims and the final hurdle of A's left on this seemingly huge plate at this point of time. I recall counselling people that they'll cross the hurdle make it through this difficult times, but only now do I realise what they've been through. And maybe it felt worse because for the first time in my whole life, I felt the stale air of solitude. The feeling of being alone without the physical support of the people who are closer to you is really, i don't know how to describe it. True, I do get occasional texts from peeps asking me how things are coming along and all, but, it's just isn't the same anymore. I recall studying alone in school (I think it was tuesday) prior to going over to Marlene's when this unbearably overwhemingly negative feeling clouded over me. I don't know what it was - over past bad papers, solitude or that emotional nerve, but it was so bad, and much as I was trying really hard to concentrate on completing my math sums (the next morning was supposed to be H2 math), I just couldn't do it. I was almost on the verge of crying and since I couldn't get anything done after 5 consecutive hours in the library, I left the library and ended up wandering around Compass Point (certainly not somewhere you should be gallevanting on the eve of a paper) for 2 hours before heading over to Marlene's. Anyway, I screwed up my H2s, and my H1s aren't any better. We'll see how results turn out to be, but I'm pretty much mentally prepared to see straight Us for that matter. Maybe I'd be the next most improved student by midyears. Or prelims. Yeah. (Self-consolation at it's best.) The weekends were much happier, when I ended Bio on a good 11.30am. Friday was spent with Putt (who's back in Singapore for 5 days and she just for Thailand a couple of hours ago.), Mare, Fee, Bero and Debz. Saturday was an hour's worth of skype with Amanda Loh who should've been sleeping then cos it was past 12am over at Utah, institute followed by Sab's birthday dinner with Sak before we went window dress-shopping for me (for ZY's wedding/prom). And today's the family's sacrament presentation followed by the ward's YSA/SA activity (where I prepared the game, wasn't fantastic for a last min idea but I thought it wasn't too bad either.) The weekends definitely made up for the sucky week. Thank you people. :D

March Hols week- I'd like to rate it the week with both ends of a spectrum. Saturday to Wednesday were awesome days until I started panicking on Wednesday night after an awesome dinner meetup with EC, Charis and Jes where it dawned on me I didn't have enough time to complete studying for blocks which lead me into the sudden frenzied cranky mood I had till this friday night. Saturday was totally awesome - I had most of my closest friends from different circles over, awesome bbq food(with so much leftovers, no doubt), fun, joy and laughter I'd never wanted to trade those moments with any other. Of course I felt disappointed and sad for obvious reasons (I doubt that person will see this anyway.) and didn't wish me on my birthday either, but oh well. ): Though EC and charis felt that you might still care for me in the subtlest way, I don't feel that way. I feel as if you've taken our friendship's for granted. I could be wrong, I wished you'd prove me wrong and my friends right but, what are the odds? True, I may be a nice girl but, I have feelings too. It made me sad thinking how other guys could treat me better than you do even though I treated you like a really close friend compared to the rest. But you know what, I think it doesn't matter as much to me, cos right now I'm gonna set my priorities straight. From now till 1st Dec. Plus, I know that I deserve more than being treated this way.

Anyway on to happier moments. So the week before was the final week of school and it was pretty alright for the last week of a term. But then again, that brings me a whole term closer to A's. And I don't feel ready to sit for A's if it's tomorrow morning.

I should just go off. I'm not in the right state of mind to continue typing. Goodnight.

Xoxo.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

It's yesterday once more

When I was young I listen to the radio,
Waiting for my favourite songs,
When they play I'd sing along,
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times,
And not so long ago,
How I wonder where they've gone.
But they're back there again,
Just like a long lost friend,
All the songs I loved so well.

(Proper post once I end blocks. I've so much to post over the week and a half and I kinda feel the epiphany right now but I must sleep soon or I'll have no energy for the morning papers ahead for the week. I've been so busy!)

Anyway, happy 20th Manda Loh! You can go get yourself attached (as promised) in Provo now hahahahahaha! And we need to skype soon cos I miss you and I want updates over from Utah! Love you loads dearie!(:
Xoxo.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

last words as an eighteen year old

1.5hours till I officially turn nineteen and I was thinking about everything that happened in the last year.

I'd say my eighteenth year had been the best year thus far - I had a taste of what glory and success really is (through sheer hard work and determination nonetheless.) The feeling of limelight shining on you during When A Prophet Speaks and in.harmoNY and the euphoria when the results of the folklore category, superior youth mix in Olomouc and Promotional Examination were released - the feelings are simply too strong yet undescribable. No doubt there was a period of uncertainty, moments where I felt discouraged, played with fire with regards to matters of the heart and complicated and tangled up my life to a huge ball of mess. I was questioned on several attempts on my ability to pull through the academic year. Nearly fainted when I found out that there was a bet placed on me and someone in Olomouc. I was too playful and decided to play on in the already-very-complicated situation that I was in, and I lost track of reality. But I've made it through in the end. I've woken up to reality. I guess these are little things to teach you life's lessons. Mould you to be stronger individuals in the future. I'm proud to say I've grown. Stronger, more determined, less foolish, less hasty.

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman. All I need is time,

I'll truly miss being eighteen. I've learnt so much, more than I ever thought I would.

May my nineteenth year be more fulfilling, and a better year yet to arrive.
Xoxo.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

will let nobody hurt you

Hi I'm here (as promised to the bunch of people waiting for me) to put up my wishlist to do so, so here you go.

* School bag
* Volleyball
* Wallet
* Starbucks Tumbler
* Collages/scrapbook/cards/letters
* Huggable soft toys
* Balloon/Flora
* *

(Okay that's all I can think of for now. I'll update when I can think of more stuff.)
(And I realised some stuff are just.. Idk they just somehow seem to be there every birthday to ease people from thinking of what to get. LOL.)

And try not to get me chocolates/sweets please, cos I still have a whole load at home trying to finish em' since forever till now.

Okay shoot my printer's not working, XT's being his pessimistic self again, need to hand in DE and hydrocarbon summary and there's PE tmr. ): Hope Meena/Zee replies so that someone can help print my chem lecture notes for tmr's lecture after PE.

To top it off, it's a mere 8 days till I turn 19. I sense a strand of white hair (they used to be gold strands of hair i guess) and wrinkly face growing and pimples popping from stress and impending doom HOW NOW BROWN COW. ):

But on the brighter side, I'm done with part 1 of complex. (part 2 seems to make me more complex than ever, but let me be happy for now)
And hello made in candy. Seeyou tomorrow! :D
Xoxo.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

it takes so much to love, and so little to hurt

Today, I had the most epic outing - a trip to Changi Museum with was the YSA/SAs, followed by korean lunch (my newfound love for bimbimbap yay!) and red mango's frozen yogurt - marie, marisa, gayle and I had a total of 6 LARGE CUPS of froyo, (just because it's 1 for 1 and everyone were craving for so much froyo - the staff must really love us) got extremely sugarhigh, institute (with random bouts of laughter), talked to Jermaine and Ally, shopping with erika at bishan, and buying chicken wings with the family at NTUC.

I say, this is happygirl92. (:
Xoxo.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Peace I leave with you

Had an awesome afternoon today - institute lesson followed by pizza and sprite (courtesy of Pres Lai) and chilling out with the awesome bunch of churchies (some whom I haven't seen for the longest time) - Marie Low, Marisa, Ben, Michael, Han, Dennis, Wongwei and all.

And Han was telling me his conversation with Jones (my youngest bro) in school. (ACS (barker)). I think it went something like that.
(In the midst of lesson - either geog/music cos he's teaching both subs.)
Jones (raised his hand): Teacher, you know how I know you?
Han: How?
Jones: You're my sister's friend?
Han: Who's your sister?
Jones: Jesmine.
Han: *thinks for a moment* Which Jesmine?
Jones: Jesmine Ong!
Han: OHHHH!
(And he proceeded to say how Jones went to tell his classmates that Han topped the ACS cohort for O's in 2008 which spread far and wide in the ACS compound and led to many students asking him how many As he attained. Which he found it a relief in some way since they were so busy figuring how many As he had they didn't divert to asking him if he had a girlfriend (sweet Felicia's being spared.) and a facebook account. HAHA!)

And Mike was, being unusually noisy today. But I missed talking to him face to face since we haven't seen each other for the past few months, haha! And he commented on how Ben's maroon collared-shirt looked like the SMRT uniform and we all misheard his job as a lab assistant at KKH as toilet assistant. ROFL.

And Wongwei told me his GP teacher was Mrs Lee. Totally coolness! We both love her she's such a hip and awesome teacher, even though she taught him GP and was my choir teacher-ic! :D

And to my dearest brother of 13 years, happy birthday Jones! As much as you may've been a pain in the butt too many a time in my life, grown to be much bigger than me despite our 6-years gap, I'll always love you for who you are no matter what happens in the years to come. (just be less cocky, i'll appreciate it a whole lot. :D) Study hard, have fun juggling with playing the dizi and floorball in school. (:

Xoxo.

Friday, February 18, 2011

I've tried so hard

I think I'm rather perturbed by the fact that many of my friends are feeling (in my opinion) overly negative over the A level results that should probably be released next month. So here is it - hi to the whole bunch of you out there, don't OVERLY worry and stress yourselves out too much, cos as much as I'd like to be there to hug you and see you cry tears (of joy, hoping very much), I can't be there physically to give you a stressball to squeeze when you need it on the tentative 4th (You'd prolly have to clone a couple of me.). Love you guys truckloads. *virtual hug*

On the other hand, I kinda realised today that, I haven't fully gotten over an incident yet. (Cos someone brought it up and I was so embarassed my heart almost died.) But oh well.
Xoxo.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I got lost in your eyes

Okay, i know i sounded/looked upset/didn't wanna talk/wasn't looking/acting my usual self this morning (please don't ask me why.) (and sorry 02, esp Sam who was persistently asking me throughout the day "What's wrong babe? Is it a), b) or c)?" D:)
Anyway i'm feeling a teeny weeny better now. (because I think what I thought wasn't true after all, I guess. Okay that sentence just sounded confusing.) And feeling a little better after throwing it all out on the treadmill for 1.6km. Totally bushed after to feel anything for awhile. Plus I was running so fast I think my heart nearly couldn't take it.

I'm gonna sleep early tonight since I'm so tired being so sad the whole day, I've 7.30am lesson tomorrow (PE) and there's chem ionic equilibria test after PE tomorrow.

And AMANDA XU XIAN ZU (since i can't text you now cos you're in china and i don't have your china number and fb's banned over there and you aren't online, happy 21st birthday salted pig! As much as you like to 'bully' me like sitting on me and things along that line, you're also one of those who protects me like a big sister. And I miss all our hthtalks in church when you were supposed to be mugging for A's last year teehee. All the best for A levels, and I'm so excited to see you soon! (when you touch down.) (:

Which reminds me of Amanda Loh - if you're seeing this, hi dearie! I miss you truckloads, we need to skype soon (after my march blocks which is prolly slightly after your birthday), i'm gonna send your birthday present over to Utah (i hope it reaches before your birthday) and I still love you like I always do. Happy belated Valentine's, and may you find your significant other half soon. (:

The two Amandas who i'll never trade my friendships with anything else in the world cos they're this precious to me. (:

And Happy Total Defence Day (if you celebrate it, haha!)
Hope you heard the signal at 12noon today. (:
Ok gonna sleep now,
Tata.
Xoxo.

Monday, February 14, 2011

I'll always love you

As cliche as it sounds, all I want for Valentine's (this year's almost over) is a amazing boy who will loves me for who I am, who'll make me happy in the days to come, allows me to be myself, accept my flaws and can wait for me till A levels ends, at the very least. (:
(Alright I guess it doesn't only have to be a Valentine's wish. Haha.)

No Valentine's this year cos I spent the day with international trade, ionic equilibria and prokaryotic organisation and control. ): May the next year be different. (At least I'm certain I wouldn't be studying this time next year.) (:

Happy Valentine's Day and International Friendship Day lovelies. (:
I love you guys. :D
And thank you for the presents and smses, totally appreciate them! :D
(Though I didn't send out any/give any presents this year, sorry. ): )
Xoxo.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Do I say I'm sorry cos the word is never gonna come out

I miss people. A wholeload of people. It's never the same, not being able to see the people whom you love as often as before. My 4/1 girls, TKG A2 girls, the few OLP people whom I'm still close to, the NYJChoir Exco '09-10, NYJChoir '09-10, 0901, stake people.
I can't wait for march, seriously.

Tonight ends on a sombre note. Goodnight lovelies.
25 days till I turn 19. Bleak life.

Friday, February 04, 2011

Heaven is a place on Earth

I hope you're having an AWESOME Chinese New Year thus far cos I've been enjoying myself so much (And no, I haven't touched my schoolwork since Tuesday night. Yet I'm not feeling the slightest bit of guilt, hurhur.)
Had truckloads of fun with the extended family the past two-and-a-half days (The half day's tuesday evening's reunion dinner.) chatting, guessing logical IQ questions, charades, sparklers and those little bag stuffies, eating good food, tossing yusheng(s), snacking more on tidbits, taking random pictures, playing and being entertained by the very awesomely adorable Sid, blackjack, visiting and all that jazz.
And passing down the toys Rox used to give us when we were younger to Sid feels pretty nostelgic - kinda feels a tad too long ago where we were still little kids playing with those toys and poof, we're in secondary school/JC/NAFA/NS/Uni.

More visitations tomorrow, I really should rest soon. Anyway my eyes feel kinda droopy.
Anyway, it's Gabbie's birthday yesterday, Marisa's birthday today, Simon's in a few minutes and Rachelle, Kenneth and Ying Jie's birthday the following day so, HAPPY BELATED/CURRENT/ADVANCE BIRTHDAY :D

Okay, I'm gonna sleep (the moment the pictures have been uploaded on FB)
In the words of Sid, "Playdate with Auntie Jesmine tomorrow!"
(Totally love my 4-going-to-5 Siddypoo :D)

Xoxo.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Wherever you go, whatever you do

Oh my word.
It's the end of January!
And I feel as if I haven't started much of school...

I'm racing with time and I can hardly breathe.
And today haven't been the most pleasant day - I'm pretty certain KO's gonna butcher me if my current horrendous bio grades persist. Looks like it's memory bio time in feb. ): And my integration techniques are pukeworthy. Oh joy. ):

On the brighter side,
I've 200+ days to save myself from the terrible fate of not being able to get into NUS/BYU,
And tomorrow's february so it marks a new beginning of the month,
CNY's coming (which also means turning-fat time),
And truckloads of some of the awesomest people's birthday everyday this week from tomorrow till sunday wooh! (: (If marisa sees this her ego will inflate such that it'll be larger than the universe. Maybe even larger than Simon's! Haha okay nevermind both of them can fight over whose ego's bigger since their birthdays are only a day apart from each other. :P)

Accompanied Xueci to Esplanade Library today to find her band scores. And she wants to go clubbing when she turns 18. Don't ever judge a book by its cover. LOL. Anyway, I'm glad she managed to find some stuff in the end. (:

Okay, back to my ionic equilibria. ):
Goodbye Jan, you weren't that awesome.
May Feb be more awesome than ever.
(PS: Rox and Rob and Sid's in town. Imma happy girl. Can't wait to see em' on Wed. Not forgetting my awesome KM and CX and the rest too! :D)

Xoxo.